Personal Dilemma

So I have returned yet again, still sporting the same issue I had from a short while back. Yes, this goes back to work and it has become a bit of a dilemma on my part. I mean the choice should be obvious, and I think that it is, but how does one go about telling your boss "I'm done"? Especially knowing that you are basically all that is left that is holding up a department?

I know I need to find something that pays more or else I'll have to continue living on a month-to-month basis and folks, living this way down right sucks. Every two weeks, my girlfriend and I have to survive (broke) until we get paid again.

With that being laid out, the choice should be clear in sight and easy to see, right? Oh I wish the choice could be made and executed as easily as it seems.

My problem lays in the fact that a part of me does feel bad, knowing that the times are bad. But man... so many of my fellow co-workers and friends have long gone and here I remain. Am I the fool? Or have I just not reached the point of no return like many others have reached before me?

My other gripe is the fact that the company I work for hasn't even given me my 3 month, post-probation raise, which was due in February. And we are where? Oh right, we're heading into October, which would mark my first year with the company.

Not to mention the fact that the company I am with picked up a grand total of ZERO new workers from the job fair recently. Good signs right? Right?

At this point, I am not rushing around and just making a decision rashly. I'd like to be sure that the choice made is as right as I can manage. I'd even like to be fair to everyone else, but I think I've been pretty patient and I've overlooked my own interests long enough. I think tomorrow is the day that I'll bring up (again) my concerns to my boss and inform him that I'll be opening up my options and beginning to keep a more keen eye out there. Meaning I'll be looking for a new place to hang my hat, so to speak.

And considering the temperament that my boss has, I'm sure he'll take the news about as well as a raging gorilla who got it's nuts kicked in. OK, maybe not quite that well... maybe, hopefully, he'll at least understand where I'm coming from.

Like that old saying goes, a man has got to do what a man has got to do. I just wish it were just a little easier to do...

Side note: I've added in a flash game at the bottom of my humble little blog called "More Mindless Violence." I think the name speaks for itself. Anyway, if you're bored, sick of work or just feel like shooting stuff... then shoot some aliens! It's fun!