It feels like ancient times, since the last time I ever wrote here. How things have and have not changed in that time. Looking back at my post history, that statement actually rings true for a change. It's hard to believe that it's been 5 years since I've been here, when once upon a time, I'd be writing here any chance I had. Now as I sit here, staring at this familiar screen I find myself struggling to find the words to share in this tiny space of mine.
Off the top of my head, it sure seems easy to lose track of something like this. The blog I mean. In this day and age, does anyone still really blog? Social media seems to have taken over that spot and now it's easier than ever to be able to share a thought, photo, video... nearly anything! No real thought required. Or I suppose there is some needed, but now you can just upload or share and bam! It's out there...
I admit that I've never really been one for social media. I've never really been the type of person that actively sought out to be the center of any sort of attention. I never was the kind of person that could muster such a thing anyhow, but that is beside the point. I used to crave such attention and would be disappointed when it didn't work out like I had hoped. Truth be told, that is what I felt about this blog for a good number of years. It bothered me that I had absolutely no audience. It felt wasteful, to expend such energy to write things and share my thoughts and to come up empty handed so to speak. But now when I think about it, it served me in ways that I couldn't understand in those days. Hindsight being what it is, I see it quite differently nowadays.
I think I personally prefer this sort of sharing, just because I think it ultimately requires more attention and focus rather than a simple thought or so. It feels more like an investment I suppose, instead of an impulse. This gives a person's words more life, more meaning I think. And I think it used to be therapeutic, to be able to share thoughts and have to structure them out instead of jarring them up inside of my head all the time.
Now I have no idea of this is a comeback or if this was simply a one shot deal. But I am happy to see my blog still around and waiting after all of these years. I might come back again, share a story or two. Or maybe more...
