Thoughts of Various Degrees

I don't know why, but here goes post number 2 for the day. I suppose this way is better then just not posting for a week at a time or longer.

Originally, I was intending on working on that story idea I had to use for my "conclusion" of Typhoon and Zero (my old writing characters) and truth be told, I even started it up.

But the ideas, at least to me, feel dated and just tired. Or maybe that is just me. Or maybe it could even be both, which I think just might be the case.

I admit that I have grown quite complacent over the past few years and I really do think it shows. My mind has grown dull and worn down and the ideas I used to get so very easily just don't come up as often anymore. It is a little depressing to say the very least about it and it just feels like I'm losing my step with writing and the thought alone sucks.

One theory I had was maybe I overthink these things, rather then to allow them to just flow out and come to me as it pleases. Could it be that I've overdrawn from my mind and now I've run on empty? Could be.

I think it also has something to do with my present environment. It is noisy and there is never usually a quiet moment of peace to think. Hell, I don't think I've even sat down and given much of anything any real thought in quite some years.

One thing that I miss about where I moved from (Kona, Hawaii) to this city I am in now. There was a certain kind of calm, a peace that a place like Oahu can never hope to replicate. Or at least, not in my own eyes and mind. It was much easier to just sit back and allow the thoughts to come, rather then have to focus so damn much to block out the sound of cars and fire engines and all the noises that can be associated with a city.

For the record, I think the Black Eyed Peas make some pretty damn good music. Yes, I know I am a few years late to that. But hey... I am slowly catching up...

But back to the ideas on writing and all that, it is funny to me now. It is funny just to think back on how certain things started, such as the characters Typhoon and Zero. Both of them were concieved from a online "RPG" based on the Anime series Tenchi Muyo!.

Just for my own sake and to end this small second post of mine, I'm going to name off all the characters I have ever written about. At least I will try to, there are quite a few names and I haven't really kept up on remembering them all. I think.

- Typhoon

- Zero

- Ryo-Suteru

- Jadris Maxwell

- Neko Silverheart

- Nika Silverheart

- Niko Silverheart

- Akurei

- Vanguard

- Vage

- Chase

- Vargus

- Nine

- Holocaust

- Genocide

- Tsunami

- Storm

- Wind

- Khrys Kaiser

- Odin

- Chrono

- Willen Graywood

- Quillen Graywood

- Edge

- Scarlet Kurishiro

I imagine there are more of them then this, but my mind just can't recall them at the present time. Who knows, maybe I should write about this group of characters and flesh them out and give them a fitting end which even I could be proud of.

Only time will tell now.

Happiness During a Rough Time

I admit it, I am horrible at thinking up titles that might some how be "catchy." It is a damn good thing I didn't try to get into some kind of advertising or I'd be out of a job and quick.

But anyway, that isn't important because this writing is all about the good stuff. It amazes me how some things managed to be good, despite all that wasn't.

What the hell am I talking about? Well, to put it simply...

FINAL FREAKING FANTASY VI!

...minus the freaking...

I just couldn't believe my eyes when I saw it, I had to walk up and pick it up. And look at it. And again. And again. You get the idea. What makes it so much better is the idea that it just so happens that it'll be released during the first week of February!

Hell I still can't really believe it, I mean after hearing stuff like SE may not rerelease it on GB or if they did, it would have been for the Nintendo DS.

Scary how a video game can make such an impact huh? There is a little more reasoning to the excitement. Well, considering that this (and FFIV) are the 2 FF games that I had came so close to completing many years ago and yet was soundly defeated because of 2 very badly timed cartrige erases. I think the erase on FFVI was the worse of the two, just because I had poured so much more time into leveling and pushing basically the entire group in learning the numerous magic in the game.

So here's hoping that this time is the charm and now I'll get to finish my unfinished business with both, once and for all.

But enough about that, time to jump into some other stuff.

If I was ever asked who is my favorite super model, I would answer Alessandra Ambrosio. She is the girl pictured above. Why her? Well, I don't really know if maybe I put too much or drawn too much of a conclusion based off of a simple thing such as a smile, but yeah. That pretty much sums up the reasons, simply her smile. It seems sincere, nice... ya know?

Yeah, I probably would be the type that would get suckered in for basing a person on just merely a smile.

On the subject of super models, it is almost funny how it seems that actresses today are far skinnier then models these days. I guess it is just the nature of the beast, the reason women are becoming thinner by the second. Or maybe they went on a diet and forgot to tell themselves to stop?

Ok, that was a lame attempt at being funny.

But seriously, yeah it is nice to see a skinny girl... but for god's sake, not to the point where you can see what she had for lunch (if anything). In the end, I hope it is all just a passing craze and maybe people will cut this crap out when they see just how bad it really looks. Am I making sense? I can only hope so or else this will look like one massive mess of words to be sure.

Subject jump: TMNT. What a turn around there huh?

In light of the fact that there is a new movie of theirs being released some time in the near future, I actually went out to pick up their first two movies. And to my surprise, they remained fairly good, even considering the age of both movies.

Favorite Ninja Turtle: The one that can fight! My girlfriend hates me... ^^

One last thought for the moment and this really is more just me thinking aloud at this point: I am thinking about writing one final story for an online group. It involves numerous characters that I've written about for a great many years, but I've not done any of that since it pretty much fell apart.

Still, I am thinking of doing it as a good bye of sorts, to close the chapter of those years. It was because of that that I got into writing and still enjoy it till this day. Now it is just the matter of getting it done and posted that is the issue. I think I may even post it here if/when the task is done.

Odd Timing

It still surprises me when things in life seem to be going great or, in my case, getting better, when something obscenely bad just ruins it all in one fell swoop. One would think that by now, I would have a better grasp that things in life most certainly do not ever truly work out the way that we would wish them to.

Then again, I also know and understand that I am but a grasshopper whom has many, many lessons in this life to live and learn.

But the fact does remain, this most recent twist absolutely sucks beyond most that has sucked over the past 4-5 years. Easily.

Ok and what in the blue hell am I writing about you may wonder? Well for the sake of future writing on my part and, well, I don't feel like sharing it all now, I will fully write about this plight at a later date and time.

What a buzz kill there huh?

For now though, this extremely vague explanation will have to suffice. I would actually write about the issue that has arose in my present situation, but I just do not feel that now is the right time to get it out here.

Amazing how I end up repeating myself when I write...

Anyway though, at least I feel a lot more at peace today then I did yesterday. It took a great deal of time for me to get everything settled with myself enough to focus on working rather then worrying.

On the idea and subject of work, I can at least say now that I have accomplished my one goal that I could not finish since the moment my brain began to function at my present employer. I won't get into all the details of this, other then it involves a warehouse, cleaning a messy section and feeling oddly proud of doing it.

I do feel slightly bad right now though, of this writing at the very least anyway. I mean I don't mean to be so vague about these subject and it pains me to say that I have gone against what I have written above in this blog's description. Yes, I am apparently holding back my full thought rather then letting loose as was the original intent.

For certain though, when the day comes that I can square away and come to terms with myself after all this chaos subsides, I will sit down and explain more about all this in a lot more detail that I am today. I imagine this whole thing isn't coming off to being a great read, since I know a story that lacks detail is too thin so to speak, to be interesting.

Then again, maybe I am just being too hard on myself. Or maybe I am not being hard enough. At this point, to be honest, I simply do not know. Such is the way of life these days...

Anyhow, I am off now to prepare to face yet another day of work and life and who knows what else that may come my way. And I will continue to do what I have done since the moment I left home: Deal with it as best as I can and leave the rest to fate.

Dear god the drama...

Simple Thoughts & The Dial-Up of Doom

I'm not going to do my usual today, by that meaning no picture today. Why do I make such a big deal out of nothing? I might have a thing for drama at all the wrong moments...

And I really do hate how it seems drama knows exactly where I am and now to find me at all the wrong moments. Had I known I had such a thing for that, maybe I would have attempted to be an actor? Soup Opera maybe?

Yeah right.

Anyway, onto the endless sea of thoughts that flow through this head of mine. Where to start?

Finally got around to picking up the CD for The Wreckers. I liked Michelle Branch's music (I admit it) before she grouped and together with Jessica Harp, they do make a pretty good team by the sounds of their music.

Only thing I did not realize was that their music is a bit more country. Not saying country music is a bad thing, it just isn't, shall we say, in my usual area of interest.

Side note: I hate dial-up. 30 minutes for a 4.5 MB download. That, ladies and gents, is a very very sad thing to see after experiencing cable.

Onto yet another thing that does bother me so, chain e-mails. Why do people insist on sending these around? I guess a lot of someones out there believe they will get bad luck for "X" number of years? I hope it isn't because these things are "fun," because clutter never is fun at least to me.

Who knows though. Could just be me and not understanding this the way it was intended?

Almost picked up ECW's December to Dismember DVD.

Keyword: Almost.

Considering there is only 2 matches mentioned on the back of the package, I would definitely had bought this if it were selling for $19.99 or something nearer to that number. But for $24? Nope. No thanks, I'll just give it a lot of time and pick it up when it hits the discount rack.

Next game I am looking to get is Street Fighter Alpha Anthology. Did I mention that before? Ah well. Anyway, I do hope it is a lot better then SFII Anniversary. That game was slow, slow, slow...

Side note: I hate dial-up. Yes, that I do know I have mentioned before. But to change things up, how about I say I hate dial-up AND AOL? That is truly a double shot of pure suck right there. Nothing ruins a day then having AOL D/C without saying anything, killing, say, any precious download that has taken an eternity to get done.

To make matters even better, it will not even allow me to reconnect because of some goddamn delay. How hard is it to let me log back in? I guess if you are AOL, that is like asking to move a mountain.

Ugh.

There went my download.

I sure as hell won't reattempt it, not now and definitely not for a while. AOL even had the balls to inform me that the program ran into a problem. Ha. Whodathunkit?

That really just threw a toolbox full of monkey wrenches into my flow of thoughts. So I suppose I shall bring this to an end today before AOL tells me it ran into a problem from 8 years ago and has only finally processed the thought.

I hate dial-up...

Whoops

So much for trying to post everyday in January, so far this being only the second post I've done in 2007. And honestly, I just won't say much more about doing that. I'd rather have fewer posts that mean something, rather then a long list of crap.

But enough about that, onto the meat and bones and all that odd ways of saying we're moving along here...

I must admit that of all things, I never would have ever believed that I would see the day that Triple H would actually be cheered as a good guy ever again. I know this is old news at the point, but it is just unreal to me that he actually did it and stuck with it.

And now I read that he has gone back down to a quad injury, which could very well mean the end of D-Generation X (pictured above). Of all the ways this revived DX could end, I surely hope this is not the way it goes down. I remember this was some what similar to how the WWE killed off the nWo a few years back.

Sucks for Edge. He went from WWE Champion back to being one half of the World Tag Team Champions. I'm surprised he hasn't dumped Randy Orton. Or vice versa. I can only wonder as to how long Rated RKO will survive...

I can't really say much about TNA, because I haven't even attempted to keep up with their shows anymore. Personally, I did find their show interesting for a time because the X-Division truly was innovative.

But my last impressions of it, well... to me it was like watching WCW just with a different name. Is that a bit harsh? It might be. Then again, it might not be as well. Either way it goes, I just hope they don't get too caught up with the WWE bashing and really focus on their own agenda I suppose it can be said.

Yes, I am also still disappointed with Christopher Daniels' DVD. That easily ranks up as one of my biggest disappointments of 2006.

One last thing on the subject of wrestling, I just got the DVD for Survivor Series 06. As I expected, my favorite match of the show was Team DX vs. Team Rated RKO. My only gripe with it was the length of the match, which seemed a little short considering the type of match and all.

Second favorite has to be Kennedy vs. Undertaker in a First Blood match. To be honest, this was my very first time actually seeing Kennedy in action and I was impressed that he could talk the talk and he could back that up fairly well too.

The on-going playing of FFXII continues, though not so much through the story thus far. Mostly time spent leveling and hunting down marks and Espers whenever possible. I was surprised at just how much time that can actually take up.

For whatever reason, I have had the urge to pick up Street Fighter Alpha Anthology. Truth be told, I am not fighting game expert nor is it my favorite type of game to play either. Still, there was always something about the Alpha series that caught my attention. I guess it is better this then having another go at Mortal Kombat...

Speaking of which, I wonder if there really is a third movie in the making...

I am definately looking forward to tomorrow. I have been dragging myself around all week so far and it just plain sucks. Maybe I am lacking sleep? I don't know to be honest. Whatever it is, I hope I can shake it off and fast!

Oh and mostly as a reminder to myself (yeesh), work is putting on a party this Sunday. Do I really want to attend? Hmmm... to put it mildly, no, not really. But there are just somethings you gotta do and I think this, unfortunately, would be one of those.

Don't get me wrong, I am not that anti-social. But I think these sort of events are meant for a group and I surely don't feel as though I have actually been accepted into this little group. I do suppose that is partly my fault, since I really do not take to people all too quickly. Blame that on my awe-inspiring personailty or maybe my upbringing.

Ok, so maybe it is more me then anything else in this case. But as I remember, either from something I heard or maybe read, a conversation goes both ways.

Anyway, yes, again I am cutting this entry a tiny bit short in hopes that I may somehow manage to keep a little something to write about later. Like maybe tomorrow. Oh, actually I do think I have a few things to bitch about now. But eh, it can wait.

Happy Bitchfest tomorrow! Yeah! -.-

2007

It is a new year now and how fitting it is that I start out this brand new year with a posting of something completely random. Pictured above is actress Jessica Biel and the relevence for posting a picture of her in this entry? None.

Well ok, maybe it'll have something to do with something in the end. I thought she did fairly good in Blade: Trinity and although the movie wasn't a total classic, I did enjoy the remake of Texas Chainsaw Massacure. Or maybe it was Jessica Biel in a white tank top that I liked... har har!

But seriously, I think she is a pretty good actress and another movie on my "must see" list is Stealth. I didn't bother to read any of the reviews on it back when it was in theaters, but it looked interesting to me. Another such movie, though Jessica Biel is not in it, is a movie called Survival Island...

On the subject of favorite actresses, here is that list in absolutely no particular order: Keira Knightley, Jessica Alba, Kate Beckinsale, Jessica Biel & Sienna Guillory. And, admittingly, I do think that Hilary Duff is a fairly good actress as well.

Ok and now that that odd moment is done and out of the way, I must say that this entry will probably end up being a short one (again). Since I had to work on Sunday, my self-proclaimed lazy day, today is being used as such.

With X-Mas and New Year gone, I hope things at work settle down some rather then the wall to wall mayhem it has been over the past month or two. Maybe now I'll be able to get more stuff done during my time...

Jumping subjects, I am still in the hunt for WWE Survivor Series 06. I read that it should have been released, but eh. Maybe it is because I live in Hawaii... damn it all for living "so far away."

Anyway, that's it and that is all. Happy New Year to whom ever that may happen to read this little blog of mine!