Feeling a Little Lost (and Insane) today...

So I just mailed my practically dead XBox out today, for it's goddamn month long vacation in Texas. Since that expensive (and, to my disgust, damn near obsolete) piece of s*it kicked the bucket, I have been just a little lost in the world.

Current past times include annoying the shit out of girlfriend (unadvised, let me tell ya...), playing Breath of Fire 3 (I caved in after the death) and just being lost I suppose. Take today for example...

I spent the day generally trying to plot my way into getting my hands on a spiffy new PS3. But regardless of the thoughts, methods and general schemes I had in mind, I was shot down instantly by my lovely girlfriend (hence the annoying antics on my part... no worries, we do it to each other anyway on an almost daily basis).

What probably has not helped matters is the fact that I have not taken to just playing the Wii alone. Factor in the fact that I think most of the games available for that system is a waste of space and out right annoying. Which I also mentioned to my girlfriend as we strolled through Blockbuster.

You could imagine how much she loved me today.

But really, Puppy Luv? Barbie?? M&M Racers??? I thought these types of shit games were saved for AFTER the system is about due for death and not when it is the best selling system out there? I mean really, why don't they just seal the deal on themselves now and just start up a "Super Mario Bros. vs. Barney & Friends BRAWL" game? Or maybe "Mario vs. Barney vs. M&Ms vs. Barbie vs. Puppies vs. Everything Else You Never Wanted to Play"?

I'd totally play as Michael Jackson...

I feel like a total idiot for wasting money on buying a Wii over a PS3. I mean with the selection of games out and what is yet to come, it just isn't worth it in my opinion. For a lot of the games that might be worth playing, you could play those on other console systems.

One other factor of my renewed interests in the PS3 lie simply on the shoulders of a certain game called Disgaea 3...

I think I shall make a simple, yet very truth statement before I go. It's gonna be a very, very, very long month of September.

Red Rings of Death

Need I say more? I know it happened to a lot of people and now it has happened to me. And here I was, just thinking how I might have dodged the bullet. Oh, how wrong I was...

Ugh, I hate Mondays!!!!

The Force Unleashed

Kind of a quick post today, just tossing out a thought here before I head off to work (again). I just played the demo for "Star Wars: The Force Unleashed" last night and I was pleasently surprised to find that it played out as good as I hoped it would. I especially liked how easy it is to pick up the controller and just being able to play straight away, rather then having to learn/remember a ton of button combos.

Another fun aspect was being able to force grip objects, Storm Troopers and even TIE Fighters. It was amazing to be able to make use of so many different aspects of the surrounding environments. It makes me wonder what things will be like in other locales in the game.

And to think, the powers that this Secret Apprentice is displaying isn't the extent of his full power. I can just imagine what it'll be like when that opens up... (I may possibly abuse the Force Lightening power)

There is one and only one other thing left that I will say in regards to this game...

I can't wait 'til September!

Too Human (& Equally Too Strange a Day)

I thought I was losing my mind today, just completely off my rocker. So I've been having a busy few weeks so far and I seem to lose track of time, date and all. This became absurdly apparent today when I thought the game "Too Human" was being released.

So after floundering about, I head to Best Buy to try and find this game in question. And what do I find?

The game!

Well, more like the game box...

But it says "RESERVE NOW!" on it rather then having the expected price tag.

Um...

To cut a long story short, I spent the next hour and a half just wandering around the store. And without fail, every 5-10 minutes I would find myself walking back to the XBox 360 section and just stare at the box for a mere second or five.

What went wrong here? Maybe the increasing fuel prices forced the game to be delayed? Maybe the donkey that carried the pack which held the games was sidetracked by a shiny stone? Maybe I just got the wrong date? Or maybe... maybe...

Anyway, I finally called it quits and headed home, feeling defeated and outright humiliated. Had I been samurai, I would have probably taken my own life in light of my deepening shame and defeat. I just couldn't comprehend it, I thought I was right and yet I was apparently so very wrong.

Fast forward to the present hour and I log onto GameStop's site, just to browse the lists one more time. Fine, that was a outright lie. This defeat was bugging me and I needed to know! I needed to know the truth and I needed to know right then and there!

And to my surprise, what are the two words I see as the page loads up?

Wait for it...

...

NOW SHIPPING!!

Ha! The feeling of righteous vindication was bliss! Defeat was but a mere cloud, blocking sight of victory! I knew then that I had defied my own insanity, breaking free from it's deceiving, deceitful grasp, if even for just another day!

And to think, I just played the demo for the game just the other day and so I don't really know all that much about this one. Now that thought makes me wonder what will happen when the time finally comes and Final Fantasy XIII is released?

Yes, yes... I know... I even dork myself out some days...

How to Be Broke For the Rest of the Year

So I was browsing through Gamestop's website tonight and happened upon a few games that caught my eye. It isn't a long list or anything, just a game or two that I thought looked interesting. The games in italic (and bold) are the ones that I'm very, very interested in.

Again, even that list is a very, very short one and I really ended up being extremely selective about what games I listed down here.

The actual idea behind this list was just to help me fully grasp the actual amount of games that are coming out from now, until the end of the year. The one truth, however, is that the games listed are those that really did catch my eye.

What was troubling and equally disappointing at the same time was the lack of Wii games. Does Japan get the same amount of crap we're getting!? Where are all the good games at? I had hoped (at the time that I purchased the Wii) that buying the system wouldn't end up being a big mistake. Unfortunately, it certainly looks as though as it might very well be so...

Oh man, am I gonna be in trouble if I actually (somehow) end up trying to field a list like this...

And I just hope my XBox can hold out and survive because I would be pissed beyond pissed off if it dies after I buy a good chunk of these games.

Tales of Vesperia (XBox 360, 8/26)

Infinite Undiscovery (XBox 360, 9/1)

Viva Pinata: Trouble in Paradise (XBox 360, 9/2)

Rock Band 2 (XBox 360, 9/14)

Star Wars: The Force Unleashed (XBox 360, 9/16)

Warriors Orochi 2 (XBox 360, 9/23)

Rise of the Argonauts (XBox 360, 10/14)

Fable 2 (XBox 360, 10/21)

Guitar Hero World Tour (XBox 360, 10/26)

Command & Conquer Red Alert 3 (XBox 360, 10/28)

Gears of War 2 (XBox 360, 11/7)

Mirror's Edge (XBox 360, 11/11)

WWE Smackdown vs. Raw 2009 (XBox 360, 11/11)

Prince of Persia (XBox 360, 11/18)

The Last Remnant (XBox 360, 11/20)

Chrono Trigger (Nintendo DS, 12/1)

Tiberium (XBox 360, 12/31)

Not as Bright as I Hoped

So having this second job is good and all, but at the end of the day I'm just not "feeling it." I don't find myself enjoying it and really, the only thing that is it's saving grace at this point is the sheer fact that it pays better then any other job I've had in the past 4-5 years.

And truth be told, my motivation at my other job has sunken even lower then it was before. Not a good thing huh?

I'm just not satisfied, not in the way that I thought I would be after taking on this second job. I surely don't want to spend the rest of my life working all day and night, that much is for sure. It absolutely sucks to wake up in the morning and have that feeling like you just don't want to do a damn thing.

But I know this isn't something that is unique to me, but just really a fact of life. I understand that this is the way things go, but that isn't to say that I have to like it all that much either. Maybe what I am trying to say to myself here is, maybe while the present opportunities are good, maybe it wouldn't be a bad idea to keep a watch out anyway. Never know what might be happening out there...

One thing that I hate about this new job is this sickening feeling that twists my stomach up into a ball. Anxiety maybe?

I don't know what it is, but every day since I've started this new job that feeling has been there. Maybe it could even be just a simple case of a new job jitters? I certainly hope that is the case. Which now that I think about it, it just might be the case. I mean the feeling does go away once I start to work.

Well, time to find something to do to try and take my mind off of things before having to head out. It can't be a good thing that I called in sick from my first job either. I'm sure there were a thousand bad thoughts and words to be had at my expense today.

If that is the truth, whatever... that place pisses me off some days anyway...

Breath of Fire 3

I was/am amazed to see this game (Breath of Fire 3) at a local game store last night. I didn't even realize it was being ported! But I don't feel that bad after reading it was released in Europe and Japan, but was rejected here in the US.

Blah.

So anyway, I was considering on picking this up and I actually was leaning towards waiting for a US release. But then I guess my consideration has been deeply altered, now that it would seem that the possibility of it coming to the US is next to never. And the version I seen was at least the UK version, so thankfully it is in English.

It took a while (that's bad huh?) to remember playing and enjoying this one many, many years ago. From what I can recall, it wasn't a bad RPG, maybe one of the few that didn't really feel as bad as those that came later for the PS2.

I think what I liked the most was the ability to combine stones to allow the main character to transform into various forms of a dragon. From what I can recall (doing a lot of recalling), while it wasn't the deepest system around, it helped me get hooked to the game.

And if nothing else, at least my other neglected PSP games will have a new friend to "hang out" with if I do end up buying this. I really need to do some hardcore game playing one of these years to catch up...

And I will stop here, before I recall too many things and end up driving myself crazy in the process. Soon, you may even see me writing "back in the day, many, many long years ago..."

Getting old sucks. Diapers, prunes, bad memory, eye sight, hearing and dentures that will always fall out, here I come!

Bernie Mac

There are just too many people dying this year and when I heard that Bernie Mac passed away, man that is just too much. I could probably drag this on, but instead I'll keep it short and simple.

I loved his brand of comedy and I respect the honest of what the man had to say. And he wasn't bad an actor either, I always wished he got a bigger part in all of the Ocean's movies. What else can I say? He will be missed, but never, ever forgotten...

A Thought or So

I've been meaning to blog a little sooner, but having to run between 2 jobs has kept me busier then I've ever been before. It has been a nice change of pace (thus far) and the new challenges have helped me feel a lot more motivated then I've been in ages.

Plus, it is just so nice to be able to show up at my other job and leave after only a few hours. I don't have to deal with so much crap anymore and things just feel lighter for me. Besides, you've simply got no idea how gratifying it feels for me (I'm easy to please) to just be able to finally just leave like everyone else! To hell with being the only full timer!

Anyway though, quick thoughts here...

I've just visited a site called "OverClocked ReMix," which features people's remix versions of video game music. Now let me tell you, I've quickly become addicted (damn near obsessed) with the site. Within the past hour or two, I've downloaded nearly 30 songs and I intend on looking for more stuff in the very near future.

Man I wish my MP3 player was working, I'd love to listen to this stuff on the go...

On an unrelated note, It seems I've been the victim of a savage attack by perps unknown. All I know for sure is I've got a huge goddamn bite on my leg that is itchy as hell!

World domination in Civilization Revolution has been fun and being a pissed off leader (with a massive army at his command) has been helpful. Helpful in that I can release tension by simply flooding my enemies with an army unlike anything they can defend against!

Maybe someday I'll venture only and play against other humans...

One last thought here, or actually second to the last thought here. I also downloaded the demo for Geometry Wars 2 and I'm enjoying the heck out of it! Now I just need to somehow get enough points to get the whole thing now...

Ok and then the last thought before I scamper away here...

Man, I am hungry!