Returning

So it has been a week or two since I last wrote and to merely say how things in life have changed during that time would just not suffice.

For starters, oh. My. God. Final Fantasy VI, finally... FINALLY re-released! And that, ladies and gents, is indeed a wet dream come true. But more about my giddy-like-a-school-girl bouts a little later.

The biggest deal, to me, in the last couple of weeks, is moving out from my apartment of five years. Yes, this ties into what I wrote some time ago during that post where I said I'd explain more later. My girlfriend and I knew it was coming, but when it finally happened... I guess it still came as a bit of a shock.

What sucks so much about it is the moving aspect. We have no car, or van or people we know that can help us drag our shit from our current place to our new apartment. Our one and only saving grace is the fact that this new place is just down the street from where we are right now.

Not bad right?

Right?

Yeah, right...

Now imagine looking out your window and seeing a pair of people carrying a TV or say, a mattress? Down the sidewalk. What would you think? Yeah, it'll be weird for sure and to add the icing to this little cake of a mess, we have until the 15th of February to move out and have our old place cleaned up or we'll have to pay full rent.

Lemme sum my thoughts up about that little idea: NO F'N WAY!

Wow, I am feeling so incrediblely rusty at this writing stuff right now. As if I had it down in the first place, but damn. Shows what a few weeks of not doing this can do. Right now, honestly, I feel just ever so slightly wound up over this whole thing. How in the world can we move our shit within a time frame of 3 days?

Yes, we are looking for miracles at this point.

Or a car.

Oh wait, that would be a miracle huh?

Crap.

And while all of this was happening, two bright spots popped up and helped just enough to keep the unbearable, well, bare able.

For one, my girlfriend and I celebrated our 5th anniversary together on February 1st. I cannot believe how the years have sped along. There are certain days where my mind will drift back to our days in high school and the thoughts of how much simplier life was then. Honest truth though, much of the advice and what not that was imparted onto me made much more sense as time went on.

I suppose this is just a part of living and learning huh?

Ok, all right... onto the main event. Subject jump in the middle of a different topic: Check.

Final Fantasy VI people. I cannot express how much I have wanted to replay this game and finally finish it off once and for all (my previous attempts were lost due to a mere shake of the SNES cart and ta-da! Memory wiped!).

So yes, this time it is like a time for redemption, to finish what was left undone and to finally lay the old school smackdown on Kefka.

With all of this said, it is time to log outta here and prepare to move a mountain or three. Maybe drink an ocean and send the sky crashing down too. Impossible say you? What that be says me! Weird I am, but proud is me!

Section of weird (requirement: At least ONE (1) line and/or paragraph per blog: Check!

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Thoughts of Various Degrees

I don't know why, but here goes post number 2 for the day. I suppose this way is better then just not posting for a week at a time or longer.

Originally, I was intending on working on that story idea I had to use for my "conclusion" of Typhoon and Zero (my old writing characters) and truth be told, I even started it up.

But the ideas, at least to me, feel dated and just tired. Or maybe that is just me. Or maybe it could even be both, which I think just might be the case.

I admit that I have grown quite complacent over the past few years and I really do think it shows. My mind has grown dull and worn down and the ideas I used to get so very easily just don't come up as often anymore. It is a little depressing to say the very least about it and it just feels like I'm losing my step with writing and the thought alone sucks.

One theory I had was maybe I overthink these things, rather then to allow them to just flow out and come to me as it pleases. Could it be that I've overdrawn from my mind and now I've run on empty? Could be.

I think it also has something to do with my present environment. It is noisy and there is never usually a quiet moment of peace to think. Hell, I don't think I've even sat down and given much of anything any real thought in quite some years.

One thing that I miss about where I moved from (Kona, Hawaii) to this city I am in now. There was a certain kind of calm, a peace that a place like Oahu can never hope to replicate. Or at least, not in my own eyes and mind. It was much easier to just sit back and allow the thoughts to come, rather then have to focus so damn much to block out the sound of cars and fire engines and all the noises that can be associated with a city.

For the record, I think the Black Eyed Peas make some pretty damn good music. Yes, I know I am a few years late to that. But hey... I am slowly catching up...

But back to the ideas on writing and all that, it is funny to me now. It is funny just to think back on how certain things started, such as the characters Typhoon and Zero. Both of them were concieved from a online "RPG" based on the Anime series Tenchi Muyo!.

Just for my own sake and to end this small second post of mine, I'm going to name off all the characters I have ever written about. At least I will try to, there are quite a few names and I haven't really kept up on remembering them all. I think.

- Typhoon

- Zero

- Ryo-Suteru

- Jadris Maxwell

- Neko Silverheart

- Nika Silverheart

- Niko Silverheart

- Akurei

- Vanguard

- Vage

- Chase

- Vargus

- Nine

- Holocaust

- Genocide

- Tsunami

- Storm

- Wind

- Khrys Kaiser

- Odin

- Chrono

- Willen Graywood

- Quillen Graywood

- Edge

- Scarlet Kurishiro

I imagine there are more of them then this, but my mind just can't recall them at the present time. Who knows, maybe I should write about this group of characters and flesh them out and give them a fitting end which even I could be proud of.

Only time will tell now.

Happiness During a Rough Time

I admit it, I am horrible at thinking up titles that might some how be "catchy." It is a damn good thing I didn't try to get into some kind of advertising or I'd be out of a job and quick.

But anyway, that isn't important because this writing is all about the good stuff. It amazes me how some things managed to be good, despite all that wasn't.

What the hell am I talking about? Well, to put it simply...

FINAL FREAKING FANTASY VI!

...minus the freaking...

I just couldn't believe my eyes when I saw it, I had to walk up and pick it up. And look at it. And again. And again. You get the idea. What makes it so much better is the idea that it just so happens that it'll be released during the first week of February!

Hell I still can't really believe it, I mean after hearing stuff like SE may not rerelease it on GB or if they did, it would have been for the Nintendo DS.

Scary how a video game can make such an impact huh? There is a little more reasoning to the excitement. Well, considering that this (and FFIV) are the 2 FF games that I had came so close to completing many years ago and yet was soundly defeated because of 2 very badly timed cartrige erases. I think the erase on FFVI was the worse of the two, just because I had poured so much more time into leveling and pushing basically the entire group in learning the numerous magic in the game.

So here's hoping that this time is the charm and now I'll get to finish my unfinished business with both, once and for all.

But enough about that, time to jump into some other stuff.

If I was ever asked who is my favorite super model, I would answer Alessandra Ambrosio. She is the girl pictured above. Why her? Well, I don't really know if maybe I put too much or drawn too much of a conclusion based off of a simple thing such as a smile, but yeah. That pretty much sums up the reasons, simply her smile. It seems sincere, nice... ya know?

Yeah, I probably would be the type that would get suckered in for basing a person on just merely a smile.

On the subject of super models, it is almost funny how it seems that actresses today are far skinnier then models these days. I guess it is just the nature of the beast, the reason women are becoming thinner by the second. Or maybe they went on a diet and forgot to tell themselves to stop?

Ok, that was a lame attempt at being funny.

But seriously, yeah it is nice to see a skinny girl... but for god's sake, not to the point where you can see what she had for lunch (if anything). In the end, I hope it is all just a passing craze and maybe people will cut this crap out when they see just how bad it really looks. Am I making sense? I can only hope so or else this will look like one massive mess of words to be sure.

Subject jump: TMNT. What a turn around there huh?

In light of the fact that there is a new movie of theirs being released some time in the near future, I actually went out to pick up their first two movies. And to my surprise, they remained fairly good, even considering the age of both movies.

Favorite Ninja Turtle: The one that can fight! My girlfriend hates me... ^^

One last thought for the moment and this really is more just me thinking aloud at this point: I am thinking about writing one final story for an online group. It involves numerous characters that I've written about for a great many years, but I've not done any of that since it pretty much fell apart.

Still, I am thinking of doing it as a good bye of sorts, to close the chapter of those years. It was because of that that I got into writing and still enjoy it till this day. Now it is just the matter of getting it done and posted that is the issue. I think I may even post it here if/when the task is done.

Odd Timing

It still surprises me when things in life seem to be going great or, in my case, getting better, when something obscenely bad just ruins it all in one fell swoop. One would think that by now, I would have a better grasp that things in life most certainly do not ever truly work out the way that we would wish them to.

Then again, I also know and understand that I am but a grasshopper whom has many, many lessons in this life to live and learn.

But the fact does remain, this most recent twist absolutely sucks beyond most that has sucked over the past 4-5 years. Easily.

Ok and what in the blue hell am I writing about you may wonder? Well for the sake of future writing on my part and, well, I don't feel like sharing it all now, I will fully write about this plight at a later date and time.

What a buzz kill there huh?

For now though, this extremely vague explanation will have to suffice. I would actually write about the issue that has arose in my present situation, but I just do not feel that now is the right time to get it out here.

Amazing how I end up repeating myself when I write...

Anyway though, at least I feel a lot more at peace today then I did yesterday. It took a great deal of time for me to get everything settled with myself enough to focus on working rather then worrying.

On the idea and subject of work, I can at least say now that I have accomplished my one goal that I could not finish since the moment my brain began to function at my present employer. I won't get into all the details of this, other then it involves a warehouse, cleaning a messy section and feeling oddly proud of doing it.

I do feel slightly bad right now though, of this writing at the very least anyway. I mean I don't mean to be so vague about these subject and it pains me to say that I have gone against what I have written above in this blog's description. Yes, I am apparently holding back my full thought rather then letting loose as was the original intent.

For certain though, when the day comes that I can square away and come to terms with myself after all this chaos subsides, I will sit down and explain more about all this in a lot more detail that I am today. I imagine this whole thing isn't coming off to being a great read, since I know a story that lacks detail is too thin so to speak, to be interesting.

Then again, maybe I am just being too hard on myself. Or maybe I am not being hard enough. At this point, to be honest, I simply do not know. Such is the way of life these days...

Anyhow, I am off now to prepare to face yet another day of work and life and who knows what else that may come my way. And I will continue to do what I have done since the moment I left home: Deal with it as best as I can and leave the rest to fate.

Dear god the drama...