It has been a little while since I posted anything outside of video games and I guess I'm just having one of those days today. You know, where your mind begins to think and then over think? That is the kind of day I am having today.
The one thing I am hating is the feeling like I've gone and "miss the boat," so to speak. I feel like I've already hit the point in life where I'll be a failure forever. Perhaps that is a little over dramatic for a guy only 25 years old?
The thing that gets me is how the people I went to school with, everyone is either married or getting married. And a lot of them have kids! I know this is the way of things, I get that part. Maybe it is just a part of my mind that doesn't believe the world is actually moving forward, that time had not stopped and we are all, in fact, getting older.
Of all the things I felt in life, older has not been one that ranked all that high on the list. But oh man, how that has changed for me lately.
The other feeling I'm having is the need to formulate a plan. A plan to get me on the right track in life and at the very least, find a way where I wouldn't have to worry about being so broke all the time. And the games aren't all that much a factor these days! I've been trading or just avoiding games, rather then trying to buy anything and everything that looks interesting. Believe me, I've not gotten a number of those already!
I just felt like writing some of that out, just to maybe help me clear my mind some. Maybe this call all be attributed to being a little stir crazy. Using up two weeks of vacation and doing nothing but sitting at home is a little nuts, as I am finding out.
I think I gotta get the heck out of here!
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