A Slight Depress

I'll come clean and say I am feeling a little depressed today, the events (or lack thereof) is just so disheartening. Today is the day I leave the age of 24 behind forever, just so that I can embrace the cold, harsh reality that is 25. I mean I'm getting closer to AARP, Senior Discounts on Tuesdays and cheaper coffee. Even just a little support would be cool! It really, really would be...

Now I know I'm a little lacking in the social department and I don't have an army of friends or anything. That group is pretty small, ya know? Keep things in perspective like that. And me and family, I guess we ain't all that tight either to be honest. But I'm not a bad guy, I don't go out of my way to be an asshole to anyone. But is a phone call really too much to ask? Would a person go to Hell for all eternity for even contemplating the thought? I think I'd even kind of appreciate a "Happy birthday you son of a bitch, hope it's your last!"

It's cold, it's heartless to a degree and yet it isn't? I mean it's the little thoughts that count. I would at least appreciate the effort shown, like hey! Thanks for remembering to condemn me today...?

But no, that just wasn't in the cards for me.

Man, it's gotta be a sign that I must be fucking up somewhere in life. When you're own family doesn't even acknowledge your ass on the day you come screaming into this bloody world, even in the slightest, it is a sign.

The only people that actually remembered me was my girlfriend (it would be World War 3 if she forgot), my mom and a friend/co-worker. I know I can't hold it against my friends because they likely just don't even know. But family? Come on dude, it isn't like birthdays change days every year now. And I know I know way more then just 3 people and I couldn't have been that big an asshole to THAT many people, right? Well I guess I must have been and I don't even remember a damn thing of it! And I don't even drink either! How's them apples huh?

Oh well. Way to kick off the old/new two-five I suppose.

Jerks.