Like a Duck...

I'll be totally honest here in saying that there are a great deal of things that irritate me in this life. I get irritate when someone walks too closely behind of me on the sidewalk. I get irritated when I try to cross the street and cars actually speed up to cut me off. But one of the things that irritates me to no end is when a person you talk to or try to contact, completely ignores you.

Imagine that feeling for a moment now. You see an old friend who you haven't seen in a good number of years and you shout out a hello. Now there is no doubt in your mind that the person heard you, heck, more then a few people to turn to see what or who is making suck a ruckus. Worst of all though, the person you called out to simply turns a blind eye and walks away.

Ouch?

See, in a different lifetime this would have pissed me off and I would probably be ranting and raving right about now. Okay, that might be slightly an exaggeration on my part. Rather then a lifetime, maybe a few years back might be a bit fairer to say. A couple of years back and I would definitely be taking this thing entirely the wrong way.

But I get it now, I understand that this is the way of things and the way of life. Having memories of a friend from nearly ten years ago is truly a lifetime worth of difference. People change, friendships end and slowly, yet surely that old life is severed forever.

Maybe it works a little differently for someone like me, who's friends are so very few and far between. I make it no secret that I don't "make and keep" friends all that easily. I'm hardly that outgoing, though I do try to be more outgoing these days.

In years past, I did try to reconnect to a number of people (mostly people I used to go to school with) and ultimately it all failed to work out.

Another thing that I understand is that a lot of people I knew are on a completely different track in life, compared to me. And I suppose the differences are simply just too great for anything to ever work out.

But getting back on subject here, I think what makes me try and reconnect with this particular friend is because the last time I had ever spoken to her (more like wrote), I was probably only sixteen years old back then and I guess things didn't end up quite that friendly.

Perhaps there is a grudge from back then? Doubtful, but entirely possible all the same. Again though, it is impossible for me to know that unless the person in question actually talks back right?

Wow, the more I think back about it, the more I understand how things wouldn't be the same. It's been a very long road for me since those days, I can say that much for myself. And I wouldn't doubt for a second that that much can be said for my friend in question. Hell, that can be said for everyone that has ever lived I suppose! What?! I am a little slow on certain aspects...

Anyhow, rather then being bent out of shape about not getting into contact with yet another "old friend," I'll simple let it roll off of me like water rolls off of a duck's back. What more can I possibly do?

After giving this all some thought though, in the subsequent years ahead... I wonder what my thoughts will be of these days? Haha... I was about to break my own rule about thinking too far ahead into the future. I mean don't get me wrong, it is nice to have a plan sometimes. But living a life like I do, it certainly serves better then keep focused on the road ahead rather then merely focusing your eyes onto the horizon.

Besides, looking into the horizon will make you blind. All that sun, you know?