Desperation!

Maybe it is the waking up at an early hour that is doing this, but I am thinking crazy thoughts this morning. I think it is safe to say that I am hitting the point of desperation! Our financial situation is going from terrible to just flat out disaster!

I wonder if our government will hand me a bail out? I mean I've made quite a few stupid mistakes myself over the years, but nothing in comparison to those who ran those giant companies into the ground. Shouldn't that mean I qualify? Maybe? Just a million bucks would do just grand for my situation...

I could even free up my job for someone else! That would help right?

I jest...

Sort of.

But seriously, things have been nothing short of lousy this year and we've not really even had a moment to even breathe. Just every single month, excuse me for saying, has been a clusterfuck bombardment of just bills and more bills! I didn't even think we had that many, but we've gotten buried in the dog pile for sure.

And to top it off, lo and behold! Then those bastards have to go and raise the prices on bus passes to boot! $60 a month is a world of hurt for a poor sucker like me! Oh great, thanks Honolulu, you've just made my month. Now I can watch as the money taken is used for road repair; aka 6 guys standing on the side of the road, whilst one digs.

AWESOME.

Maybe it would have been smarter if I had applied to the City of County of Honolulu? I wouldn't mind making some easy money that way and at least I'd have a real retirement to fall back on eventually...

Or maybe I'll go ahead and move into low income housing and yet manage a brand new car. And by brand new car, I'm not talking about a Honda or something like that. I am talking about new as in BMW SUV kind of new. How in the hell do those people do it? I am always seeing those guys pulling in and out of the housing areas near where I live and those guys are in a whole lot better shape then we seem to be in.

Wow, I didn't intend for this to end up being a sort of a rant... but I guess that is exactly what this has turned out to being. I just can't help it sometimes. I just get frustrated that it feels like we are always sinking and there are those who seem to have the right connections or whatever or however it works out, and they just seem to get by so much easier. I suppose it is because we haven't taken the same road as a lot of people we live around have; by that I mean taking advantage of the systems in place to help those in need.

It sucks sometimes, but I guess it has more to do with our pride that we don't go that way. Or maybe we're just stupid for not using these things? I just know we've not gone that way and we've been trying to survive without it. But it is just getting to that point...

I just want to scream and rant and rave and throw the biggest little kid fit I can manage.

Wouldn't that be a sight?