Venting

For whatever reason, I often try to limit down to number of personal posts on my blog to as few as I can these past few years. I suppose one of the main reasons for that is because I'd rather use this blog to share my interests (some might say obsession) in video games. Perhaps this blog is my place to escape from the daily grind and all of the headaches in between. Here I can forget my troubles and just write what interests me and that has worked out in helping me relieve some stresses.

But lately I think things have begun to break down for me and even these little escapes are not having the effect they once had. Things I used to be able to ignore without care now just bug the shit out of me to no end. I know in my mind that I shouldn't let the idiocy of others affect me negatively, but I just cannot help myself anymore. Where did this all change? I can't put my finger on it, but I guess finding out that sort of information is a little useless in the long run.

One of the biggest irritations for me is to see how so many people around me claim to have a difficult time in life, and yet they take a ton of trips and ride around in brand new cars. And these guys don't even work that much! What is the secret here I have to wonder? Did I miss the boat or was I asleep during this life lesson? Why am I struggling so goddamn bad and yet these people just happen upon easy street? Let me clarify what I mean by 'easy street'...

These fine folks (all around my age *23-25*) live at home with mom and dad, pay no rent and barely any bills outside of their own gas for their cars, maybe insurance and whatever personal spending money they care to use. Otherwise, they live FREE. I mean what the fuck? And some of these guys actually go to college and draw an fuckton of free money too! Why? Well they only work part time and because of this, they can look like the poorest sons of bitches around! And they are old enough to where they can claim their taxes by themselves and their parents' earnings don't affect anything for them. So ta-da ladies and gents! Rich ass bitches these guys become!

Maybe I am not using our government properly or rightly, maybe I am just not utilizing everything that could be at my disposal. Maybe I am going through life the wrong way here? I mean I can't even afford a used car, much less keep from bouncing my rent every month because of a mountain of bills. Maybe I should start to look for more ways of pulling "free" money like EBT and what not? I mean if there are so many people in this world that can get this stuff whether they need it or not, then why the hell not me too right?!

No, fuck that... no way... I don't intend on going that route and just taking the easiest road I can find. Yes, I am stupid like that but this has always been the story of my life. I learn the lessons the hard way. It just pisses me off whenever I hear one of these guys complaining about how hard it is for them, when in fact their lives are fucking easy in comparison! I would gladly trade any of those HUGE $150 worth of bills that my dear friends complain about with my rent ANY DAY!

But I guess at the end of the day the truth of the matter all comes down to the choices we make in life. I suppose in a way I could have stayed at home with mom and dad and just tried to live the easy life. But my parents were NEVER the types to just allow me free reign and just do whatever the hell I please. They made me work throughout high school and I was told that if I stayed and lived at home, I'd be paying rent and an equal share of all the utilities as well. A far cry from a lot of people I've run into since moving out here to Oahu.

Forgive me, I honestly don't really know the purpose of ranting about all of this. I know this is just the way life works itself out sometimes, but I can't help but be ever so slightly pissed off about it. Meh...