Delusional Mind

Delusional.

That is exactly how I would describe myself and my state of mind and being at this moment. Why? I am increasingly losing my sense of time and thus my world is in chaos. This has been a disturbing trend that I have been lost to for the past several years now. I would love to state just how many, but I've... lost track of time.

Its so bad, so very bad when entire years blend together to the point where I can remember in what year I did what. I think that sense ended after the year I graduated from high school. From that point on, it has all been nothing but a downhill slide.

How has this affected me recently? Take the pending release of Mass Effect 2 later this month.

I have not reserved myself a copy, which I am wholly intending on purchasing a "Collector's Edition" some day soon. However, pretty much since the first day of this new year, I have been mentally panicking as if I am about to miss the release of the game. Why? I couldn't remember when that day was and when I did, I thought it was next week. What is the date today folks?

January 6th.

What the hell am I thinking?!

Another example would be the newest (and delayed... ick) DLC for Dragon Age: Origins. I was still checking XBox Live every day from Christmas day until the apparent release date. All of this even while knowing when the release date was suppose to be. Again, why was I doing that? Because I could not remember for certain.

Bad, bad, bad.

On the flip side though, I don't lose my wallet or house keys and I remember where I am at all times. So in that regard, I at least know I am not really losing my mind. But when I go to work, sometimes the days all blend together and I get a little confused.

Anyhow, back to the talk of games to end out my little post of my decreasing sanity, I have been trying to withstand impulse buying video games. It has not been an easy task, considering I have interest in more games this month besides Mass Effect 2. Two titles that come to mind immediately would be Army of Two: The 40th Day and Darksiders.

But I promise myself I would show more restraint in these types on purchases. I've gotten way too many crap games over the last few years (I think...?) that I am much more hesitant about which games I buy. So at this point the only games I am actually committed to buying are Mass Effect 2, Dragon Age: The Awakening and Final Fantasy XIII.

We shall see just how long I can hold out and not go crazy over the games that were held back from last year. There were a good number more that I am interested in, but more or less the deciding factor has been trying to find games I like playing. And with how my list has shaped up so far, it looks like this year looks to be the year I hit back into the realm of RPGs.